I’ve been feeling absolutely awful. There’s the routine nausea and tiredness but the worst of it is soul anguish. It’s impossible to gauge how much of this is contributed to hormones. Likely it’s mostly that, but in the fog of it this is no consolation. I’m not so sure my hormones have leveled out since Addair Kentucky, making normal irrelevant [...] Continue Reading »
volatile mama
6homemaking, the couch, and writing aids
2February begins the second of a three month family plan. Finish taxes (it can be a novel for the self employed), a home refinance, obtain health insurance (in case of the proverbial tugboat), and build a little savings. Add to the to-do list, buying a couch. Nine years of keeping house, and still no couch. [...] Continue Reading »
all this stubbornness in the room
2As a follow up to yesterday’s post, very quickly, I want to say that Ashley and I are doing better. The issues didn’t work out overnight, but we at least had an “I’m sorry, me too, and let’s agree to keep working on this,” sort of conversation. So the silence lifted, I fed the dog, [...] Continue Reading »
let them freeze
14Ashley and I have been duking it out for weeks. Months, really. But a solid ten days of the good stuff. Typical parents of a 13 month-old maybe, or two very selfish people out of rhythm with their wants, probably. ”I was going to be this writer but I always have to stay on a [...] Continue Reading »
New Years Resolutions
5It’s time for thought as to estimable notions like balance, discipline, and alignment; not to mention hope, for a new year is upon us and other than cold rain, the fiscal cliff has come although it hasn’t opened the roof too bad yet. I hear Addair is awake and that means I get diaper duty [...] Continue Reading »
and he awakes before i finish posting this
5I can’t sleep because I’m angry. I don’t know at who exactly. I’m trying real hard not to whine. Partially, I’m mad because Addair Kentucky hardly sleeps. Don’t give me advice about this, sleep advice makes me angry. I checked out a book on tape, Bringing Up Bebe, to listen to on our trek to [...] Continue Reading »
letter to a friend : advice rant on parenting
7as for advice…. me o my. My heart is full for new mothers. My experience of pregnancy, labor, delivery, and now this first year of motherhood has been more than I can effectively put into words. It has changed absolutely everything. Certainly for the better, though there have been lots of growing pains. It [...] Continue Reading »
artist statement : artifacts of us
4This work explores the confusion, uncertainty, and simple delights of operating within the traditionally feminine roles of homemaker and motherhood. Both the content and process seek to quietly protest the meaninglessness our society attaches to domesticity. The soft pallet, wavering lines, home fabrics, playful decorative marks, rough waxy varnish and wispy cursive text asks for voice without [...] Continue Reading »
nine. Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters
2NINE Playing background dinner music is one of the best places to people watch that I know of. It’s better than a bench in the mall, better than a county fair, better even than a cafe table on a busy street. When you’re on the piano you may stare all you want and no one [...] Continue Reading »
shoot big
3Glen and I, plus Rodney Wolfe (in photo) went around Saturday to demonstrate the Gnarly Bar. We took it to the Kingston skate park, the Bristol skate park, and any place that looked like we shoot something. I’m working on a website and video for Glen so he can fully convert the garage into an [...] Continue Reading »