a few things, dear erica

If I’d have written yesterday it would have just been complaining and whining.  At 2 pm we had a doctor appt and he gave a good report.  Everything is aligned and in 10-14 days he’ll give me removable rubber bands on the braces.  That means I can eat soft food and talk.

They say the 3-4 day mark is the height of inflammation and yesterday was no kidding.  The little uvula (teardrop between my tonsils) is swollen to the size of a spoon and I can spit it up or swallow it.  They think it got suctioned when the anesthetic tubes came out.  I’m complaining already, aren’t I?

I’m hoping to utilize the silence before this is all over.  When I was in the hospital I made a mental list of all the areas I’m going to try and focus on.  Like being present.  Listening.  Having peace.  I hope to have the clarity to do some writing.  I’ve got houses left half painted too.  So far I’ve mostly lay back and hurt, worried about swallowing, and watched episodes of Prison Break.  I guess I need to raise the bar.  I’m not going to let this situation pass and realize I spent the time feeling sorry for myself and counting down the days and hours between pain medicine.

This blog is most of the talking I do.  There was a hateful comment on here yesterday and if I’ve come across like an egotistical maniac, I apologize.  I’m just telling a story here, like I always have.  This person attacked my motives, my role as a father and husband, and even pointed out that perhaps I am an altogether fraud under the falsely assumed name “Levon.”  All this person had left to call me was a flat singer and I could be thoroughly insulted and fighting mad!

As someone who has held their face together overnight while slobbering blood in their lap, someone with both jaws broken to each side and metal plates across the bottom of their teeth, I can take it on the chin, Erica.  Say what you’ve got to say.  Tell me everything on your mind.  I’m in a season of listening.

 

Reader Comments (14)

  1. Gregg said:

    Good for you for holding someone accountable on the internet. I was thinking the other day about what a problem it is that people can say whatever they want on the internet in anonymity. Not that she did, but if we’re going to grow as a culture with the internet, we’re going to have to learn to be accountable for what we say, and hold others accountable for what they say. {Steps down from soapbox}

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    • Ashley said:

      i like your soapbox

  2. rebekah said:

    zoe and ysa respond to your comment to dear erica….”booyah!!!!” what a jerk!….we love you and KNOW you adore Ashley and Addair. And yes, good for you….keep posting updates, family and friends far away can keep up with your healing and progress. It’s your story…..btw….posted a ton of new spartan pics I found on their website.

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    • Ashley said:

      i loved seeing his old jaw line in the pics, haha. he’s getting closer and closer to it everyday

  3. Eric said:

    I am glad Erica didn’t see my Facebook profile. All those pictures of me shirtless in the mirror taken with my iPhone would’ve surely outed me as a much bigger narcissistic person than you. Let’s go ahead and just get it out in the open here, you were my mentee in that very area. I taught you all you needed to know about self love and importance. I believe it was also that you suggested I start going by the ass hole formerly known as Savage. I love it and it has done wonders for my image in town.

    Either way man, hang in there One thing I’ve always from survival guides is that a positive mental attitude is the number one key to survival. The great Tupac Shakur said it best when he said “keep ya head up”.

    Don’t forget that there are plenty of people who will gladly stand there and take one on the chin for you, me included.

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    • Ashley said:

      me too

  4. Frankie said:

    I have to believe it was someone surfing and just being mean. I’m not even real sure Erica was the right name or that it was a girl, could have been a man… Someone that doesn’t even know Levon… Not sure how he/she knew all the details but anyone that would even try to suggest that Levon did not feel blessed to have Ashley, clearly does not have a clue to what he/she is talking about.

    Anyway, best to ignore him/her unless I have a chance meet him/her and explain what a great guy Levon is and what a wonderful father and husband…. just before I PUNCH HIM/HER IN THE FACE !!! Whoops, did I use my out loud voice when I typed that?… Sorry, I’d erase the comment but I’ve already hit the “Post Comment” tab…

  5. Ashley said:

    love that you have our backs

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